Thank you everyone! It has been difficult to be without him, but it was worse to watch him suffer with his weakness and pain. I asked my husband why we keep doing this to ourselves, why we bring a pet into our lives and fall in love with them and then lose them after only a few short years. He said it's the price of unconditional love. It's true. And I will do it all over again someday.
Is it weird that, since my other dog passed away 3 years ago, I downloaded a diary app and write letters to my deceased dogs? I mean I know they're gone, and of course they could never read anyway (lol), but I guess it's therapeutic for me.