Anybody would like to change their life if they could go back as long as the knowledge you have now. I'd love to but if I did I think it would change alot of turning points in my life that makes me the person I am now. In my life there were many critical turning points such when I was 8yrs I was hit by a truck was in a coma for weeks when I woke up I didn't remember anyone of my family members & never got my memory back. It was like being born again but waking up in an 8yr old's body. Due to sever brain damage, my intelligence was reduce greatly. I was held back to 1st grade with my younger sister. How humiliating is that for a child (in front of her peers) to be taken out of your chronological grade level to a class with kids a yr younger than you?
I don't know if me & my younger sister were close or not before the accident but I think not b/c something inside me even with my brain damage, she just rubbed the wrong way. She took every change to put me down or call me stupid b/c I was having a hard time in school. She rubbed in when I only made it in regular classes while she got into the gifted classes.I don't even know what kind of college degree she went into b/c I was glad she left for Gainville college.I stayed b/c I won a 2 yr scholarship to a Highly accredited
community college.Pretty good for one who's Dr. told the parents that their child would be a vegetable.My parent's didn't have to pay a cent for my education b/c of my scholarship & the BLOOD money awarded to me by the person that hit me. In fact they didn't have to pay for anything on me, my blood money paid for everything from braces to school. I meet my future husband @this community college & though it took me longer to graduate but he, helped my through it. I fell for the genius biochemist/biologist instructor on campus.Yep,I fell for brains instead of brawn.He had eyes bluer than the bluest sky & he was so kind.I graduated @ FSU with a B.S in Psychology & a Minor in Chemistry.
Just a couple of weeks ago,we got into " the accident," subject. My older sister told be that before I got hit, I was basically a genius child. Why didn't they tell me this yrs ago, i wouldn't have gone through life feeling like the retarded child.I wonder if the genius "ME," back then was an *bleep* & full of myself.Why my little sister took revenge on me.If I never sneaked out the house to go to friends & never got hit would I have met my husband? I don't think so because I would have prob. gone to a college for genius's. I wonder would I be a real stuck up genius brat like my little sister was to me? I'll never know but just to know how it feels to be super smart & not have to struggle....I would be so tempted to go back with the knowledge I have now, could I change this other me not to leave the house that day. Could I change her so she can became me in the future even if her path will change, or will I become someone I'll truly hate & despise.