Kill Me

[ro901]

It is cowardly, selfish and self serving. You just don't have the strength to keep going on. You're tired and you're fed up. So what? Life just goes on getting harder and harder but who the &*(^ are you to get out so easily? What makes you think you deserve escape and besides that, you'll be dead and you will not know ANYTHING so there is no escape ..you have to be alive to feel anything such as relief.

[charmaine56]

pray for all the people in the world today
who think if they are gone the world will be OK
every person has the right to say
without me you would still pray
but what you came here for cant be put off another day.

Calling the hotline is the best thing to do.
Looking inside yourself and saying your worth living this through

People are so bad to have made you feel this way

thats why those at the hotline can help you today.

call your doctor and let them know what is bothering you

They know who has been abused and made to feel that way.

and the hotline can help you right now today.


You will grow up and see you are worthy to be here.

I did not know fusion had young people making money. what is the age limit here.

I can tell my young cousins there is a place for them now.

I give my love to you and you will find people who will love you as you work your hard life out. It may not seem like it to you but they are there to sing and shout. How much you are loved. At 15, you can get yourself a foster family if you feel that bad you dont want to be here.

talk to a counseler now please my dear.

[amyrouse]

This song reminds me of my brother, and these lyrics just stand out to me.  I can't say it any clearer than I have before: suicide is not glamorous, it's desperate and pitiful.  There is always, always a reason to fight and keep living.  Ask anyone who has been dragged through the worst life has had to offer... rape, death of family, death of a spouse or child, divorce, disease, homelessness, poverty... there is so much that a person can experience.

You're 15... you have every reason in the world to fight and to try to get through the rough.  There are so many people here on FC, especially in D&D, that can tell you about the bad things that can happen to a person, or how someone can put themselves down or listen to everyone else putting them down that they believe the bad.  But... here is the bottom line...

Suicide is final.  There is no going back once you've killed yourself.  Just think about it.

http://www.allthelyrics.com/song/1307211/

Oh why there's no comprehending
And who am I to try to judge or explain
Oh but I do have one burning question
Who told you life wasn't worth the fight
They were wrong
They lied

And now you're gone

[NeoMatrix71]

I read all that people have wrote but it's almost feelings like none read what I wrote.
Suicide is not about seeking help from the All Mighty but from those here on this planet that chose to ignore our pain.
It does not require miracles from GOD but love and support from family, friends and sometimes a stranger.  

As for God, he gave us the bible for us to learn to love one another.  He gave us compassion but we choose not to use it.  

And on a side note.  There is no hell, sheol was the original word the King James Bible switched to Hell, but Sheol in Hebrew really means the grave.  The only hell there is , is that which we make for ourselves.

[amyrouse]

I read all that people have wrote but it's almost feelings like none read what I wrote.
Suicide is not about seeking help from the All Mighty but from those here on this planet that chose to ignore our pain.
It does not require miracles from GOD but love and support from family, friends and sometimes a stranger.  

As for God, he gave us the bible for us to learn to love one another.  He gave us compassion but we choose not to use it.  

And on a side note.  There is no hell, sheol was the original word the King James Bible switched to Hell, but Sheol in Hebrew really means the grave.  The only hell there is , is that which we make for ourselves.

No, I did read your words.  My brother was bipolar, too.  He tried multiple times to kill himself, and I know I personally tried what I could do to help him, but the thing is, he needed to want to help himself, too.  He didn't, though, and spent so much of his time lamenting about what a cruel world it is and how the world was out to beat him down instead of accepting responsibility for his actions and noticing the good that was in his life. 

I feel compassion for those who are suicidal...I've been there, too.  I've been through quite a few hard times that I won't elaborate here, I've had bad postpartum depression, and I am still suffering from major depressive disorder.  But, I have two parents, a husband, a daughter, brothers, sisters, nephews, friends... so many people I love that I would be leaving behind if I drove off a bridge or slit my wrists.  No matter how hard my life gets, no matter how depressed I get, no matter how bad things seem, I can look at that and see why my life is worth living.  Compassion for others only takes you so far; you have to have some compassion for yourself, as well.

[cheyanne15]

pray for all the people in the world today
who think if they are gone the world will be OK
every person has the right to say
without me you would still pray
but what you came here for cant be put off another day.

Calling the hotline is the best thing to do.
Looking inside yourself and saying your worth living this through

People are so bad to have made you feel this way

thats why those at the hotline can help you today.

call your doctor and let them know what is bothering you

They know who has been abused and made to feel that way.

and the hotline can help you right now today.


You will grow up and see you are worthy to be here.

I did not know fusion had young people making money. what is the age limit here.

I can tell my young cousins there is a place for them now.

I give my love to you and you will find people who will love you as you work your hard life out. It may not seem like it to you but they are there to sing and shout. How much you are loved. At 15, you can get yourself a foster family if you feel that bad you dont want to be here.

talk to a counseler now please my dear.

I love this poem and it really touches my heart, and yes I am still young and I wanted to kill myself once but I never tryed though because I wasn't brave enough to do it because deep down inside oof me I wanted to continue living. I didn't want to for friends or family because I don't think it will affect them that much, and I'm one less mouth to feed for my parents.
Yeah that goes back to the question though, is it a bravely or cowardly thing to do? Because I was a coward and didn't do it, and deep down in my heart I wish everyone who has commited suicude was a coward and didn't do it either D8

[amyrouse]

I love this poem and it really touches my heart, and yes I am still young and I wanted to kill myself once but I never tryed though because I wasn't brave enough to do it because deep down inside oof me I wanted to continue living. I didn't want to for friends or family because I don't think it will affect them that much, and I'm one less mouth to feed for my parents.
Yeah that goes back to the question though, is it a bravely or cowardly thing to do? Because I was a coward and didn't do it, and deep down in my heart I wish everyone who has commited suicude was a coward and didn't do it either D8

Speaking as a parent... we yell, we punish, and we're pretty bad natured at times... but if your parents are even remotely like me, they love you, and even though they probably complain about money, they would rather be homeless than to not have you in their world.  I've seen my parents, after my brother killed himself.  He thought he was a burden, that he was just contributing to my parents being broke all the time, but when he died, it nearly destroyed both of my parents.  He killed himself in 2006, and my mother still cries on a daily basis, even though she has two new grandbabies to keep her company.  It nearly destroyed me, too.  He killed himself exactly 4 months after I was raped, and I could barely handle myself... I did most of the planning for his funeral because my mother was too destroyed to do so. 

Your friends and family would miss you.  It may sound hokey, but watch the movie "It's a Wonderful Life."  The reason why it has had such longevity is because its true... every person touches someone in some way, and every person is missed when they are gone.  You are not a coward for not taking your life... it takes courage to be scared and depressed and lonely but to get up and face the day anyway.  You really should think about talking to someone... call a helpline, or, hell, even call the local rape crisis center and ask them who you should talk to... they'll do whatever they can to help.  Or, if you want to talk to a someone you don't know, I'd be more than happy to give you my email, facebook, or even phone number (regardless of whether or not admin would ban me) because you really need to talk to someone about this before it builds up and festers worse in you...

[nusa29]

Only cowards kill them selves and others. There's no good reason in the world to do such a thing but many come up with plenty of reasons. Still I know there is no good enough reason, no matter how bad things can get... hope and faith saves us from all evil and our selves. we are made to fight all odds and defeat all battles of the soul thats why our minds have no limitations into thoughts.

[ninajay]

I have felt like I wanted to die when I was younger, but it wasn't about being a coward and I don't think it would have been brave. When you are hurting emotionally you just want it to stop. For that period of time, I just felt weak as if I didn't have control of my life and didn't have the power to change it. Fortunately I just cried it out, prayed and got over it because, honestly, I really didn't want to die.

[AmyTrivitt]

A person is not in their right mind when thinking or committing such an act upon oneself. My childhood friend killed herself a little over a month ago. Such deep depression. Is this cowardly im sorry but I say NO. Im also not condoning it in any way. But like I said someone is not in a right state of mind to commit such an act. And we as people should not judge what we cannot understand. My friend left behind two beautiful children in which I know she loved them with all her heart and soul. Again what was going through her mind we will never know. But theory is more powerful than judgement. If a person thinks of this act they are truly in so much turmoil that honestly they are not thinking for themselves. Do I or her family or friends hate her for this NO. All of us wish we could have done something.

[AmyTrivitt]

I love this poem and it really touches my heart, and yes I am still young and I wanted to kill myself once but I never tryed though because I wasn't brave enough to do it because deep down inside oof me I wanted to continue living. I didn't want to for friends or family because I don't think it will affect them that much, and I'm one less mouth to feed for my parents.
Yeah that goes back to the question though, is it a bravely or cowardly thing to do? Because I was a coward and didn't do it, and deep down in my heart I wish everyone who has commited suicude was a coward and didn't do it either D8

Speaking as a parent... we yell, we punish, and we're pretty bad natured at times... but if your parents are even remotely like me, they love you, and even though they probably complain about money, they would rather be homeless than to not have you in their world.  I've seen my parents, after my brother killed himself.  He thought he was a burden, that he was just contributing to my parents being broke all the time, but when he died, it nearly destroyed both of my parents.  He killed himself in 2006, and my mother still cries on a daily basis, even though she has two new grandbabies to keep her company.  It nearly destroyed me, too.  He killed himself exactly 4 months after I was raped, and I could barely handle myself... I did most of the planning for his funeral because my mother was too destroyed to do so. 

Your friends and family would miss you.  It may sound hokey, but watch the movie "It's a Wonderful Life."  The reason why it has had such longevity is because its true... every person touches someone in some way, and every person is missed when they are gone.  You are not a coward for not taking your life... it takes courage to be scared and depressed and lonely but to get up and face the day anyway.  You really should think about talking to someone... call a helpline, or, hell, even call the local rape crisis center and ask them who you should talk to... they'll do whatever they can to help.  Or, if you want to talk to a someone you don't know, I'd be more than happy to give you my email, facebook, or even phone number (regardless of whether or not admin would ban me) because you really need to talk to someone about this before it builds up and festers worse in you...

You truly are a sweet person!!

[amyrouse]

I love this poem and it really touches my heart, and yes I am still young and I wanted to kill myself once but I never tryed though because I wasn't brave enough to do it because deep down inside oof me I wanted to continue living. I didn't want to for friends or family because I don't think it will affect them that much, and I'm one less mouth to feed for my parents.
Yeah that goes back to the question though, is it a bravely or cowardly thing to do? Because I was a coward and didn't do it, and deep down in my heart I wish everyone who has commited suicude was a coward and didn't do it either D8

Speaking as a parent... we yell, we punish, and we're pretty bad natured at times... but if your parents are even remotely like me, they love you, and even though they probably complain about money, they would rather be homeless than to not have you in their world.  I've seen my parents, after my brother killed himself.  He thought he was a burden, that he was just contributing to my parents being broke all the time, but when he died, it nearly destroyed both of my parents.  He killed himself in 2006, and my mother still cries on a daily basis, even though she has two new grandbabies to keep her company.  It nearly destroyed me, too.  He killed himself exactly 4 months after I was raped, and I could barely handle myself... I did most of the planning for his funeral because my mother was too destroyed to do so. 

Your friends and family would miss you.  It may sound hokey, but watch the movie "It's a Wonderful Life."  The reason why it has had such longevity is because its true... every person touches someone in some way, and every person is missed when they are gone.  You are not a coward for not taking your life... it takes courage to be scared and depressed and lonely but to get up and face the day anyway.  You really should think about talking to someone... call a helpline, or, hell, even call the local rape crisis center and ask them who you should talk to... they'll do whatever they can to help.  Or, if you want to talk to a someone you don't know, I'd be more than happy to give you my email, facebook, or even phone number (regardless of whether or not admin would ban me) because you really need to talk to someone about this before it builds up and festers worse in you...

You truly are a sweet person!!

Thank you, but I wasn't looking for a compliment... someone who really needs to talk to someone should have that available.  If I can help prevent someone from taking their life like my brother did, I will do all I can.  Suicide hurts the ones that are left behind.  Its been four years, and I still feel the pain on a daily basis.

[sammywantsya]

if yoru down and out i suggest you listen to will's wisdom...

he has alot of insights that can get you motivated only if you try...

dont ever give up on your life.. never..

you where born here for a reason.. it should never be wasted... think about it...  

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s8YzsTBLZqY&feature=related

just watch it its admirable

[NeoMatrix71]

Self serving and selfish is what I hear.  You don't see that there is a problem beyond what a person want  compared to , it's all they see or think.  Emotional pain has gone passed the point you can take.  You are numb and what you or other think is the last think on your mind.  This is just shows that is part of a illness (depression, manic-depression).  Trust me 90% of the people who kill themselves did not want to die.

I think instead of judging them,try to help them cuz if not your judgement is part of the problem.

[dragon702]

it depends but i think if you kill yourself because your being bullied or whatever, that's pretty cowardly....but if you do it like a samurai then that's kind of cool and they use to see that as honorable