Hi Kim,
So sorry about yesterday's note. I should have gotten on earlier. I'm glad the storms are gone from last night. They were still heading up north and east late last night. The one tornado was not too far from our dirt road out to the main road - It did some damage on the street around our church and some houses. The church's grill was thrown from under the garage part to about 150 yards away. There were other things thrown around from the houses. The church bus was just ahead of it and got caught up in the winds - Roddy said those kids didn't know what to think; they were scared to death and just wanted to get home. Most of them have never experienced high winds like that.
I'll get some money from the house when it's sold, but they won't finish that until the roof situation is done and fixed. I know it won't be too much longer until the roofers are done (I hope, anyway.)
I do have to go to another town in GA tomorrow (about 45 mins. away) and have a chest x-ray done at that hospital. Then on Dec. 1st, I'm set up with a new pulmonologist about 1 1/2 hours away. I was able to at least switch to this new one because he deals strictly with the asthma/lungs. The one in FL only wanted to deal with my sleep apnea. It's mild but she's treating it like moderate to severe and is more concerned about the equipment being used. When she first had me on oxygen at nights, I did so much better during the nights and mornings - felt better for a few hours longer in the mornings. On the equipment, I didn't do as well, and it messed with my nose too much by aggravating the perforation and dryness more, and I would have to yank it off for the coughing. She would get on to me because of me taking it off, even though I told her why. She would not listen to me about the oxygen and the fact that the asthma is the one not in control. I couldn't handle that anymore. So I'll try this gentleman and see if he will listen and help. Several people go to him and are very complimentary of him in that aspect. One person I know was tried on the equipment and the oxygen and is now on the oxygen because it works better for her. I don't have to pay up front for the x-ray and the appt. so I agreed with Roddy that I would get this 2nd opinion.
That's nice that you and Bob will go out for TD. I would probably rather do that myself if we weren't going to his family - I'm not sure I could handle the big preparations this year, even though I know Veronica would definitely want to help. Your idea of lasagna sounds great! That's a great idea and less worry for you with cooking/clean up. Are Bob's kids close with him? I know the one daughter must be, the one who keeps up with you.
I know it's kind of frustrating for you not being able to feel free enough to make changes in the house. That would be hard just having 2 burners to use. I just hope that you both could eventually get a house made for the both of you. In the meantime, there's more of you and your reflection coming along than you probably know. The way you've gradually attempted changes or asked about changing something has been thoughtful of his reactions and desires. There's not too many women who would be so kind and understanding like you have about changes. I know it's hard for you, and I'm really proud of you.
I hope you did better on the Pathos test than you thought you would. I feel for you with those feelings of depression and loneliness. And as much as I love autumn with the cooler weather and leaves changing colors, when the darkness sets in so early like it does now, that, to me, has more of a depressed feel to it than during the summer when it's light out until at least around 9:00. So, I really believe that helps to contribute to those feelings some. It's also good to have a few days to ourselves, but it's hard when it's too long. When will Bob be back? You have done wonderful in your efforts with dealing with so many things and you have come a long way and made great improvements for the both of you. Keep standing tall, okay? I do wish I could pop in for a visit or vice versa, or meet for coffee, tea, or something, occasionally - I honestly believe it would help both of us!!!
Still nada from Randal. There's just no excuse for this kind of behavior toward his family. Yes, I'm still hurting over this, and yes, I know he is under her influence right now. But, now I'm getting a wee bit Irish tempered. He has never acted this way toward any of his family. Our church friends have asked so much about whether or not we've gotten to talk to him or see him when he got back; and to give him special thanks for what he does for our country and all, that we finally opened up to them and told them what's going on. Of course they're shocked and upset. Some of these people have met him and his little family before and just love the girls. Bon knows exactly what she is doing by withholding those girls because she know's that's something that she can hold over me and make me hurt. But I know, as with past experience, that pretty soon they'll start having their little problems again because of her attitude, and he'll get sick of her mom's influence over Bon even towards him. That's when he will need all of his family and he knows it.
Another thing is I've been concerned about Roddy for awhile. Arthritis is hitting him pretty hard. But he's getting dark under his eyes and he's gotten more run down. He does enjoy his bus job, and he enjoys helping with the bussing of the church kids to and from church. Wednesdays he doesn't get home until around 11:00 because of both jobs all day. He naps in between his daily routes on the other 4 days, which he needs. He's been having some pains in his chest but acts like it's nothing. He went through a similar problem years ago and even now is on some pretty strong meds for his blood pressure and heart. The problem is he just will not go to the doctor unless he's half-dead, if you know what I mean. I finally got him in to a doctor who's treating him for the arthritis but that took about 2 years to do that. He'll listen to me and take vitamins with iron and more, and next thing I know, he's quit them. I'm just worried deep down about him and hope he's going to be okay. This thing with Randal is bothering him more than he lets on, too. That doesn't help the stress level.
Good grief, I just noticed I have written a book. I'm sorry - didn't mean to do an overload! I really appreciate your listening, and in return, letting me listen to you. Okay, now you hang in there and keep that standing tall posture!!! I'll catch up with you some more later.
Julie
