I'm not trying to trash your experience, but I'm skeptical because you may not have been aware of the subconcious causes, motivators, and chain of events that finally allowed you to kick it cold-turkey. It's understandable how believing in some higher paternal power who personally cares for and is looking out for you can be a powerful motivation for someone who feels otherwise helpless. This doesn't mean the higher power is actually there...it's a scientific fact that our brains can do many funny things while under stress; you said yourself we can't trust our senses.
Oh, I don't care if you trash my experience. If that was the end of it, I may be an atheist today. However, this was the beginning of one powerful event after another. So much so that the supernatural has now become the natural.
RW:To this day, no one can explain how it happened!
You're not telling the full story here...you got kicked out of the Coast Guard, yes?
No, I did not get kicked out.
There are many ways charges could have been dropped; you could have had a commander looking out for you, saying that you were a hard worker
Certainly, however, that doesn't necessarily mean it wasn't orchestrated by God. Many times God used humans to accomplish His will in Scripture!
and told the truth and had already suffered enough by being dishonorably discharged...also the military is INFAMOUS for losing people's paperwork and f*cking things up!
Well, I wasn't discharged, and yes, it is true - things can get messed up in the military. However, that in and of itself, does not eliminate providence!
RW: This may or may not have taken place...it may have been drugs, for all I know.
No, it actually did take place and at the time felt very powerful...but the difference is I now know there was a medical explanation for it, not a supernatural one. You didn't read very closely because I said I was in the hospital and was malnourished...nothing to do with drugs.
Yes, it may have been malnutrition. It may have benn God! However, if that was the only experience you had, I would lean toward malnutrition! It is not to say, however, that God was not planning on attempting to use it for His purposes!