Hello Kimberley,
I just wanted to comment on your voicing yourself here, strong words and sounds like pain in some of them due to what has happened to you in your life, maybe even what you have seen or not seen. I was also raised in the Catholic faith, but changed to Methodist eventually then now to christian I would call it. I changed because of the Catholic religion with our priest at the time not doing the right thing and I thought this is wrong to tell my sins to someone who was at fault himself, so I changed. I was brought up knowing about God and had and still have a strong faith, have had alot of things happen to me in my life, to show me there is another side that we cannot see with our eyes. i have been protected many times. So all I can say to you is you are strong voiced, and of strong conviction in your beliefs and thoughts, but I am asking you to not just disregard that there are things we cannot see that are very much there in our lives. Take care and search for the truth.
Mary