I dont know what to do :(

[Azanne07]

I haven't talked to my mother for some years now. The relationship I had with her was toxic. I needed to get away.

I obviously don't know what went on between you too but my mother choose the man who raped me over me.

Maybe one day, but not today nor I do I see myself in the near future having a relationship with her.

In fact her contacting me has only pushed me farther away because I feel all the pain and everything all over again.

She may miss me and maybe she really means it but I just cant. Maybe one day in my own time and on my own terms.

maybe some space would help her. I don't talk bad about her around the kids I have but they don't know she exists either.