don't know which is worse

[aggie49]

had chemo today and went the funeral home for a little while but i was getting to sick so came home i feel so bad that i can't be with the family and  hope i can make it threw Thursday and Friday when we bury my mother in law i am trying to be strong for everyone but feel like i am not able to do it  i will get threw it just hope i don't get sick 

[BATISTAGIRL663]

first off i am so very sorry for your loss --i am sure your family understands that chemo makes you sick sometimes and you shouldnt feel bad that you cant be there --prayers for you and your family in this time

[aggie49]

i no my family understands but i have always been the rock for everyone and i can't do that right now and it bothers me so much