Is life have a purpose because I don't see it I am depressed and can careless

[blondie71]

I don't understand how this world works.  i am so tired of worrying about paying my bills, we don't make enough money and I don't know what to do about it.  I am doing several web sites and I am just not making enough to keep us a float.Sometimes I wish I was never born I can't deal with this crap.  I can't physically work so where does that leave me, my primary doctor is pissing me off and we just can go anywhere to get treatment sometimes I think they don't understand my condition they don't recognize my medical problems and we don't have any good doctors but a lot of nurse practitioner I am suffering everyday and went to get a prescription filled he said no to the pharmacy and told them I needed to quit smoking  well no crap it hard so he is willing to denied medication because I smoke he did the same thing to my mother That is just wrong. He quit but his attitude sucks.  I am trying to quit but that shouldn't determine my medical problems  Its just easier to disapear and no onw will have to worry about me I can't stand the pain and the medications are not completly helping.

[mrrangerrick]

I'm sorry to hear, I've been in the same boat. The best advice I can give you is find something you love doing and try to find a way to make money out of it. I use my survey money to buy stuff from thrift stores and yard sales and then fix it up and sell it on ebay for a mark-up. I enjoy it! Hope that helps and keep your spirits up! 

[bretay]

sorry to hear about your problems...depression is a serious thing...find something that you love doing and try to make a go of it from there..yes it may be small to begin with,but you never know how things are gonna turn out..take one day at a time...

[PGS28]

I understand the feeling of being overwhelmed- I'm 31 with 6 kids.  But ironically I absolutely love my life and am looking forward to the future and I want you to too.  I want you to be happy. I know it's always easier for people who haven't walked in your shoes to see the bright side of things but the one thing I know for sure is that it could always be worse.

Try breaking down your problems and finding solutions to each one: 

Have you tried any OTC products to quit smoking (patches, gum, etc)?  I don't know much about e cigs, but I figure even that's healthier than nicotine.  I don't know anything about them but I'd be willing to do research and gift you a pack if you think that'd help. Seems to me like quitting smoking will help you in two ways: health wise and financially. 

Also, call your health care provider to get a listing of other medical providers in your area.  Free medical transportation may also be available to you, so ask about that too. 

Go on web MD or google and research alternative or homeopathic pain medications.

Analyze your budget to find ways to save money, even if it means downsizing your place or sacrificing a non necessity. 

Hope this helps! 

I don't understand how this world works.  i am so tired of worrying about paying my bills, we don't make enough money and I don't know what to do about it.  I am doing several web sites and I am just not making enough to keep us a float.Sometimes I wish I was never born I can't deal with this crap.  I can't physically work so where does that leave me, my primary doctor is pissing me off and we just can go anywhere to get treatment sometimes I think they don't understand my condition they don't recognize my medical problems and we don't have any good doctors but a lot of nurse practitioner I am suffering everyday and went to get a prescription filled he said no to the pharmacy and told them I needed to quit smoking  well no crap it hard so he is willing to denied medication because I smoke he did the same thing to my mother That is just wrong. He quit but his attitude sucks.  I am trying to quit but that shouldn't determine my medical problems  Its just easier to disapear and no onw will have to worry about me I can't stand the pain and the medications are not completly helping.

[vp44]

Sounds like a psychiatrist best friend. In reality many people deal with so much that when put in perspective you can help yourself by analyzing things in your life and tweaking out some things that just do not fit anymore.

[Gerianne]

there is an article on the Natural News website  "how I overcame my depression and anxiety without medication" once you go to the website, you can go to "blogs".

[bremer51]

The purpose of your life is to be YOU.  You are here for a reason. Think of the people in your life and how you touch their lives. You are a valuable child of God and to think otherwise is wrong. You have a lot of negatives in your life and probably feel powerless in dealing with them.  Find one thing you can control and take care of that.  Then tackle something else.  You want to be the master of your universe.

[minioncookies]

You know when people have attitudes like this is makes me sad. The world is not giving up on you dear you are giving up.. NEVER LOSE HOPE. Nobody said life was going to be easy. That is a given. Times get hard and money get's tight but there are a few options out there. Take some time out of your day and do a google search for your local area where their are groups that help with low income people. These groups are everywhere and there are several to choose from. You can also do a google search for places that will help provide you with a little food for the month. Places like westaid. I know there are some church's out there that do it you just have to call around. Also make sure you always ask what to bring with you because i'm sure they will need some sort of identification. If all else fails (which it shouldn't) You can look up some shelter's in your area.( I know a shalter does not sound to appealing) Shelters do take families in and they do help provide a stable place to live and they also help you get into a job.. Which is the best part because once you get back on your feet you won't have to be there anymore and you will be able to help yourself. Another thing i would open yourself up to is a good ol fashion
psychiatrist. Sometimes talking will help more than anything!It can also open your eyes to new horizons and make things more clear.You  also can get guidance on how to tweek the little things in your life to make your life a little more easier for you. Depression is an ugly thing that can bite you hard in the bum several times when your already down and out. If you let depression beat you you will more than likely be on medication that you don't need and become dependent on it.. Becoming Dependent on a medication is not a good idea because it can damage you emotionally and physically. You have to beat the Depression. You are a strong person. You will more than likely get over this hump. I have faith in you.Your family has faith in you. They need you.You think nobody needs you? Look at your family.. Would they not be sad if you were gone? You are a big part of your family i'm sure and without you i'm pretty sure there would be a big chunk of life missing there..Have you ever seen George Lopez? They had this one episode where angie didn't feel needed around her house.. So she went and started doing things for other people. She was apart of meal's on wheels and taking care of older folks.. Well then her family started needing her.. She got a little angry because she wasn't needed before and now that she found something everyone needed her again.So she told them to do it theirself pretty much. Anyways a couple days later her son failed something i belive or needed help and nobody would help him.. and she asks.. Why didn't you come to me? He replied with.. Well.. You said to do things yourself an that you were busy so he did.. She felt horrible.. Anyways the point of the story is she was needed and didn't realize it untill she was doing something else.. I'm sure you are the same way! You are needed and you just don't see it As for the doctors they will always blame smoking on your condition. That's mainly because smoking is bad.. We all know smoking is bad but killing the addiction isn't easy.. What's funny is doctors never realize a camp fire is more dangerous than smoking really is..I'm sorry about him not giving you medication you need. I would suggest maybe finding another doctor and seeing if they will provide you with what you need. I hope you get out of your depressed stage where you think nobody needs you. You are needed. The world is a beautiful place if you let it be. Stop and smell the roses once in a while. Relax for a bit. Talk to someone. Just these little things could help push you in the right direction. Sending prayers your way in your time of need. 

[madeara]

I am sorry you are struggling with depression.  Jesus loves you very much!  He has a plan for good for your life.  I will keep you in my prayers.

[potluck6]

Never knew you could not get meds because you smoke .You could lie and say you quit.If you can't work can you get disability .If you need real money I wouldn't rely on surveysites not enough money .Someone said she made 7.00 a day and she thougt that was great. When you think about it 7.00 a day which I don't make is pretty bad.I'd try something else. best to you.

[ushaann]

thats sad to hear about ur problems

[hitch0403]

Blondie....it seems we all struggle in this world.I am guilty of not taking my own advice many times but there is a scripture that reads in Mathew 6:34,keep seeking the kingdom of God first and all these other things will be added to you.

Now this scripture doesnt mean to ask God to help you hit lotto...LOL!But i certainly believe if we support and LOVE HIM he will care for us and guide us in helping us get by in this cruel world.Ask in prayer for help.Even if in baby-steps.

And remember Jesus said there is more happiness in giving than receiving.

I wish you well!

[camellia0]

Do you go to church? It would be good for you to talk with someone. I know churches do assist people who are falling behind.  Don't give up. Sometimes we get upset because of issues, but we have to realize that  there is always someone who is worse off than we. I pray that you get the help you need.

[mardukblood2009]

I feel the exact same way. I am not about to even start to list all my problems. I just look to the next day and hope
sometime new will happen and try and think about the happy times.

[champak97]

We are all here for a purpose, and please don't give up.  I hope you find a way to pay your bills. It must be hard for you, when your medications are denied. Hope you get the help you need.