There is no side stepping involved. I presented exactly what I wanted to exactly how I wanted to. The puzzle is left to the reader. Prove this internal inconsistency you speak of as I am curious to see it ...
There isn't much to a "puzzle" which involves an attempt to divert attention away from the facts. Those facts consist of your assertion to be
both "a believer", (xtian), and to "have superior critical thinking skills". That assertion isn't being contending, (much). What is being contended
is an inherent implication that any such critical thinking skills are being fully-applied to those religious beliefs. That contention includes a somewhat 'selective' application of critical thinking when it comes to such challenges to the
basis of belief/faith being that for which there is no evidence. Critical thinking would require that accurately attributible evidence support a contention, otherwise the logical conclusion is that the questionable contention of belief-without-evidence, (the basis - not the declaration), is specious.
... because the only construct that seems available is mutual exclusion or contradictory claims. Mutual exclusion is easily dismissed ...
The inherent implication, (that "superior critical thinking skills" are being applied to religious belief), is not so easily dismissed, as previously iterated.
...and contradiction would would be impossible to prove even if it were true and speculated.
The implicit contradiction is that, if critical thinking skills are
not being applied to "belief", then the claims are contradictory.
Of course you could mean something else, but your post makes me think it is something that should be obvious and I don't see anything else (but I didn't see that squirrel I ran over today either -- no really I didn't see it I just happened to swerve that way at the time).
Metaphorically, that squirrel may be said to represent self-declared "superior critical thinking skills" and hubris, (literally, it represented an bad day for the squirrel).
“Nothing can be more contrary to religion and the clergy than reason and common sense.”
-- Voltaire