falcon you seem to have a deep set of beliefs or at least that you have thought out...
While not speaking for all 'falcons'; I don't have any sets of "beliefs", (as I understand the term to mean 'convictions lacking tangible evidence'). Instead, I have a preference for using an ability to reason and examine what evidence is available.
After that process, there's usually a point where speculation arises out of such a
reasoning process, (in lieu of skipping the reasoning and jumping right into speculations).
HOW DO YOU THINK EXISTENCE STARTED?
Falconeer02 was correct; that is a complex question and any non-religious answers you're likely to receive will range from simple speculations to much more complex ones.
The brief 'answer' I'd theorize is
'fractal emergence', (the longer theories arise from a complex interconnected group of mathematics concerning multiple dimensions, chaos, superstring, fractal and emergence theories). Emergence theory is technically speculative, (pends verifying evidence), but is based upon existing tangible evidence and 'mathematical proofs' to support the viability of such theories.
i ask because i don't understand how something could come out of nothing, or how a god could just be there, but onto something coming out of nothing... i once heard that there are these partciles or whatever that appear randomly out of nowhere and sometimes they dissapear and sometimes they stay, well if thats true where did the system of them coming out of nowhere come from, and how was there nothing?
The 'something-from-nothing' aspect of the
visible universe is what concerns the multi-dimensional/chaos/superstring/emergence theories.
That is, theorectical physicists, (and others), hypothesize that some particles which have been observed to "appear" & "disappear" may be doing so either by way of "quantum-tunneling", (for example, with tunnel-diodes), or by "dimensional translations", (into some other dimension than the four most are familiar with; 11-dimensional space/time theories). These other dimensions aren't actually "nothing"; they're nominally dimensions for which only mathematical proofs currently exist, (being undetectable in our four dimensions thusfar). There are no mathematical proofs positing the existence of 'g-d' or, any 'g-ds as most religions vaguely define such terms for "supernatural" entities.
Since we'd therefore have 'something' we can detect arising out of something we cannot, the situation isn't "something from nothing". It's theorized as more of a hyperdimensional-steady-state universe in which there was neither a 'beginning' nor an 'end', (and subsequently, no need to posit a "creator" 'g-d'). For instance, in advanced chaos theory with regards to fluid dynamics, there arise "islands of stability/order" out of chaos from the
motion of the chaotic medium itself, (no "creator" necessary - such patterns appear 'spontaneous').
... like culdnt god have made himself nonexistent if he was just there so nothing had to exist and possibly suffer?
Everything that lives, dies, (so far). No 'g-ds' are required in that premise. In life, there is "suffering" and non-suffering, (among many other things). No 'g-ds' are required for this to occur or be prevented.
my main concern is something after death... like what if its really bad being trapped for eternity in your mind or consicousness or your existence never ending? FALCON OR ANYONE HOW CAN YOU BE CONFIDENT YOU JUST DIE AND DONT GO ANYWHERE? please help
Since no one has returned to life after being physically dead, (religious myths notwithstanding), we are left to speculate. If one speculates, (or avoid it entirely), by basing their 'hopes' upon religion/faith/beliefs, there is an overwhelming probability that they'd be incorrect about what happens after death. The apparent options include speculations that; nothing happens - dead is dead, the intangible "animating energies" which make you
you translate dimensionally into an intangible form of existence, (here's what the religious adherents grasp fervently at and then wildly speculate that they "go to heaven ot hell" when there's no valid evidence to support such speculation), or that those 'intangible animating energies' [life/conscious awareness] get "reincarnated" into tangible lifeforms - normally not a butterfly or shrub.
As previously mentioned, just because it's
speculation, one must discern the
difference between speculations arising from unsubstantiated beliefs/notions/fears/faith/random irrationality and those which have a foundation in reasoning and evidence. Failure to do so can result in being mentally-trapped in a blind-faith paradigm and that would be "hell".