To be back on track, I fell out of the path I was suppose to be in, fell away from the Grace of God, but I have repented and ask forgiveness, now I have faith that God will show me the way He wants me to go. There is nothing else we can gain from life, we lose every material thing in it, we die, but through God we can have peace, love, joy and happiness, and be with Him in eternal life, nothing is better than that, the other way leads to a lake of fire, not the couse I wish to take.