I've been playing since July 17, 2004. :| I've spent about $650 on just game subscriptions alone for that time. When I raided back in 2007, I was doing 80-90 hour weeks of playing. I didn't have a job at the time, clearly. I was dating a guy of 2.5 years and he played as well. During that year he gained 80lbs and somehow I lost 20lbs.. guess I always felt like I had no time to eat. I dropped down to 105lbs for a 5'4" frame. Which, I'm not complaining, but I literally just wasn't eating much. I lost a lot of muscle not doing anything outside the house. Believe it or not, but a year of playing a video game, not socializing.. come time to get a job I had a hard time just talking. I got a retail cashier job and would stutter, or not know how to greet someone, or not know what to say.
I stopped playing for 9 months when I got that job. I also had moved to a different state where I knew no one - kind of started my life over. Eventually I wanted to keep in touch with the friends I made in WoW so I started playing again. The sad part, I continued to pay for my subscription for the 9 months I didn't touch it. I kept thinking one day I'll get back into it. It's like I wanted to go back to that life. Last month is the first time since I started playing that I canceled my subscription. I met a great guy who *surprise* is NOT a gamer, and does not play world of warcraft. Just seeing this polar opposite lifestyle - being outdoors and active, I want to be a part of that, of his life. I also need to focus on my school. I dropped from a 3.5 GPA to 2.7 in one semester. I didn't know why until I counted the hours I played during finals week - 50 hours in game. It was a wake up call.
So come July 27 this month, I won't have an active account. I'm kind of excited. I don't want to delete my characters.. how terrible is that? But I've spent so much time. I'd feel like I was throwing something priceless away. I've known people to sell their accounts. One friend made a whopping $1000. But counting the hours he put into his characters? $1000 doesn't even seem fitting.
It's an addiction. It's hard to understand if you don't play. It's hard to see how bad the addiction is if you do play. I still down play my addiction, not because I'm trying to seem normal, but because it FEELS normal. To tell a friend that playing 5 hours a day is NOTHING. I believe that. Back then, 5 hours would be like 4-5 dungeons. That time goes by so fast. Some of my non-gaming friends say more than 2 hours a day online is ridiculous. I live online. I do almost everything online. Hobbies, side income, research, learning something new, etc, whatever it may be. I don't go to a library or bookstore to find what I'm looking for, I look online. Technology is a poison too strong for me to cut out of my life.