There are so many posts here with warm wishes, encouragement and stories. People that are suffering with some type of cancer, or people who are sharing their stories of loved ones or friends they know of or that have left us. I go back and read every single post by all of you, let me make that clear. I have always found it important to support in any way this terrible disease. Over the years as I have grown and heard many stories along the way it has only made me support more. Now I am reading about it everyday to learn more as it seems there is always different news from the doctors with each appointment. I have started selling breast cancer items to help pay for the expenses of all the tests and to donate %20 to breast cancer and another %20 to lymphedema.
Just a few days ago she was on the waiting list to get radiation for the non cancerous lump under her armpit causing the lymphedema to her arm. She was given a date for surgery to have her gallbladder removed as it is full of stones. She has been given more calcium pills as she is not at a strong enough level to receive the bone treatments. The tumor in her hip is still very fragile but not at the point of a hip replacement yet. Also she just had her left lung emptied as it had 1 1/2 litres of liquid in it that was making it extremely difficult for her to breath. It has been a long 12 days and so much has happened. Now with Friday's past appointment with the oncologist we have come to a decision. There has been so much activity in her body, we are 2 weeks away from another bone scan and it takes about 1 week for the results of the liquid in her lungs to come back. It is not worth waiting for. It just feels like the pills are not working or haven't had the time to work , but time is not on our side here. So next week there will be some heart tests to go through. Then we will know which treatment of Chemotherapy her body will be able to go through. The one the doctor has suggested if all is well with her heart would have her lose all of her hair. Amongst many other possible side effects that is the most visible. I know it is just hair and if she would want I would shave my head if it would help but it still makes me cry. I think why her, it's not fair and wonder if the chemo will even help. Then I think of all the people out there going through the same thing or worse, people not lucky enough to have lived long enough to get treatment and more. My thoughts and my mind just seems to ramble these days. I cry and then I am strong and then I cry and find myself strong again. I won't leave her side through any of this and I will do all I can to ease any pain and help in any way that I can. I will write when I can to update as I truly find it a source of release. I very much appreciate the stories you share and again the support, I hope you still keep it coming!