Aggie I'm so sorry. I lost my dad over 20 years ago and at times it feels like it just happened yesterday.
My mother just passed away on Easter as well. I actually just got back from being up there and clearing out her house late last night. I also lived far away from my mom and hadn't had a chance to see her that often over the past five years. Before the recession when we had to move far away, I used to see her at least three weekends a month. After the economy tanked and we had to move where work is, I could only see her three times a year, and that was very hard.
I've very much appreciated reading other people's posts in this thread too about their own loss.